Regina Dawn Akers

Holy Spirit: You are experiencing a feeling of emptiness or incompleteness, which you are trying to fill with some experience within the world. You go about your way of trying to fill this emptiness in many ways through spiritual seeking, through eating, through a change in your career or through achieving better health. But always you are judging now as incomplete and always you are thinking a different now would be better.

Do you not see how this is merely a repeat of the tiny mad idea the wish that as it is now be different?

I ask you to notice how much you desire for now to be different for there to be some change in your current experience in order for you to be happy. And then I ask you to notice that within this wish that now be different, you make the choice not to be happy now.

Just notice at first. Notice that wanting something to be different is choosing not to be happy now.

And then, after you have noticed, continue to be willing to notice how much you wish now were different. You may come to see that this wish is much more prevalent than you were aware. And you may wish for that to be different wish that you did not have the wish. But when you see this last thought, pause, and notice what you are looking at. The wish not to have the wish is a clear echo of the judgment of the tiny mad idea.

Now, with this realization in your mind, can you choose to look at everything differently? Can you choose to be happy with the wish in your mind? Can you notice that you want now to be different, see clearly that wanting now differently is an obstacle to feeling happy now, and then choose to be happy with that?

If you can choose to be happy with the wish to be different, you can choose to be happy with yourself. For whenever you judge your ideas, you judge the essence of you. And when you choose to judge the essence of you, you choose the experience of unhappiness.

Do not think much about what the effects of this decision may be. If you are looking to effects hoping they will be different, you are caught up in judging the moment and not seeing the judging that you do. Instead, notice you hope for different effects. Notice that is a judgment of the moment and allow yourself to be happy with your wish. Say, Yes, I want things to be different. Yes, I wish they were different than they are. What a magnificent mind I have that I can wish for difference and experience the light of untrue.

Question: I admit that I am feeling fear at the idea of practicing this message.

Holy Spirit: That is your feeling of being foundationless again. Allow that feeling in joy.

Judgment is a foundation, because it is the building block of this experience of illusion. Without the building block, the foundation and the illusion must crumble. Your judgments that keep the untrue in place are very subtle, and it is time we begin looking at these subtleties now. You notice some judgments as judgments and you choose to let them go, but others you see as right and keep them out of a belief in rightness. Judging the moment through wishing is judgment, and judging the wishing is judging more. To see this without judging is shaking the foundation of illusion, and this is why you feel fear.

Remember that fear is resistance to letting go of the false as true. Accept your resistance without judgment, then step forward into My request remembering that patience is key. We are going very deep into the mind now, and this is the answer to the questions that you ask. We will continue to step into the mind by going in one little bit at a time, but we are going in at the core, so the effects of the going shall be great.

Holy Spirit : The desire to be loved by others is the desire to avoid your own perceived self-hatred. I say perceived self-hatred because you do not truly hate yourself. You hate an illusion of yourself. This is very important for you to see, and it is this realization that will allow you to let go of everything that you fear.

Think for a moment about your desire to be loved your desire to be approved of, to be liked or to be looked at favorably by others. When you are honest with yourself, you will see that this is one of your greatest worldly desires. When you do not love someone in the world, it is often because you believe they did not love you first. When you love someone, it is usually because you feel loved by them. There is a direct connection between your feeling for others and how you perceive they feel about you.

The desire to be loved is a great obstacle to awakening, because it covers your greatest fear. It is also an obstacle to following guidance or to being authentic because you will deviate from the guidance you hear, at least to some measure, if you feel that you may not be approved of by others.

I’d like you to take a moment now to look within your mind at your human memory and realize what an obstacle the desire for love is.

Now that you’ve realized what I say is true, let’s look at the reason for this obstacle. The reason is clear and easy to see. Below the desire to be loved there is an intense and boiling belief in the hatred of Self. This feeling, the belief is so intense that you seldom look it right in the eye. Instead, you prefer to look in the eye of illusory approval, but do not lie to yourself. Illusory approval is illusory and not based on truth. You realize this when you notice that illusory approval is shifting and changing. It is never consistent and it is not something you can count on in trust. This is why you are always acting in some way, not being truly authentic. You are fearing the loss of illusory approval and doing (or not doing) whatever you feel it takes to maintain the approval you crave so desperately.

Now that I have painted this picture for you, and you are looking at it honestly with Me, I’d like to talk about what you are doing to yourself. It is important that you see this as an obstacle to your true happiness. If you do not see this as an obstacle, you will not let it go, because you believe illusory approval is love and you know love is the only means of happiness.

When you seek illusory approval or when you believe illusory approval has been found, you are placing your trust with something that is not real. Because you are the Son of God, you know at a level that is intuitive that you are trusting the false as if it is something true. You also know this is a lie and that as a lie, it must fail you. Therefore, at a level that may not seem conscious, you live your life of illusory approval as a life of fear. This is why you can never relax. The foundation you have placed your faith for happiness on is not solid, and as the Son of God, you know this.

I said that this idea that you cannot trust illusory approval seems unconscious. I say it seems unconscious because in truth, it isn’t. If you look at it carefully with Me, you will see that the fear of loss of approval is never truly unconscious. You may not admit to yourself that you are doing this or that, never truly being fully authentic, because you seek approval. But if you look at it slowly with Me now, you know it is true. The idea that you must win approval is always there, lurking in the open back of the mind. Therefore, it is not unconscious. And if it is not unconscious, you can look at it more directly with Me.

Now let’s look at your greatest worldly fear. Let’s imagine no approval. Let’s imagine there is not a shred of it. Let’s imagine that everywhere you look, you encounter open hatred directed toward you. There isn’t a single soul you can count on. The entire world is joined in agreement on one thing, and that one thing is that they don’t like you. They don’t want you. They don’t want to lay eyes on you. They don’t even want the thought of you crossing their minds because it causes them such terrible agony. The one thing that the entire world is in agreement on is this: They thoroughly and completely hate and are disgusted by you.

Sit in this for a moment, and notice how much you fear this idea. Don’t worry that it can be true. It can never be true. It is impossible to be totally abandoned by love. But look at this for a moment as if it is true, and notice how much you fear this as an idea of truth.

Now let’s look beyond this idea, because there is another idea that you fear more. Hold My Hand and willingly engage your free flowing imagination as we step in together and look closely at what you truly fear.

When you see the world hating you, despising you and cutting you off, you are lost in a terrible suffering. But do not look away from why you suffer. Your suffering is not truly coming from them. Look carefully, honestly and completely at what you are feeling now. You are suffering because you believe the hatred they project onto you is true. You believe it is real. And you believe it is real, because you believe it is deserved.

In a whoos a quick change in perspective you see clearly that the judgment you fear is not really theirs. You fear your agreement with their judgment. You fear your judgment of you. You fear your final and complete, self-devouring hatred of your Self. And whenever you seek approval whenever you want someone outside of you to love you what you are not seeing is that what you truly desire is simply to love yourself.

Loving yourself is not as difficult as you may think it is. Loving yourself is simply a matter of learning to see yourself as you are instead of as you are not. And although your eyes are trained to see you as you are not, both when you look at yourself and when you look at others, your mind naturally directs your attention also to see that which you are. It is simply a matter of recognizing one as your truth and the other as that which is not the truth of what you are.

This is why I ask you to look beyond the body as you look for the truth of what you are. You can never limit your view to your body, or to any aspect that represents individual as self, and love you as you because separate is not what you are. You must broaden your view to all things in order to love Self. You must let your eyes gaze out the window and land on a bush or onto a specific leaf on a bush, or on an airplane, a car, or a piece of rolled up paper moving through the street with the wind. Let your eyes land on anything that seems not to be the body and say to yourself, That which I see is also me.

As you broaden your view by holding this thought in the mind repeatedly day-after-day, one moment of remembrance to the next, you will begin to see that you do not truly hate Self. You fear hating Self, but that is because you accept Self as less than all it is. When you broaden the view of Self to everything, you cannot hate it. Everything can only be loved. To judge and to hate, you must separate. But without the illusion of separation, there is only love.

Willingly broaden your view of self. You can’t love an illusion of you, because it isn’t true. But love of truth is flowing, and you cannot be separate from that flow when you accept that the flow of everything is you.

Question: Holy Spirit, I have several friends who seem to believe they are victim of their own minds or victim to the thoughts in their mind. They are caught in a loop of believing and experiencing that they cannot seem to emerge from, and they are clearly feeling trapped in hell. What is most helpful to share with these friends who are seeking help? I surrender all thought to you and wait gratefully for your answer.

Answer: The answer lies in remembering who you are all of the time. Although you may not have the experience of being creator, you have the knowing of it, at least intellectually. That little bit of knowing is enough to take you very far. But when you remember yourself as victim, you forget who you are. In that moment you are being you, pretending to be something else, and the entire experience you are having is coming from you.

When you remember what you are, and you decide to trust that knowledge with faith, you begin to create an opposite driving force. It is the opposite driving force that will begin to create an opposite driving experience. Then experience and faith can be combined to create a stronger opposite driving force.

The beginning of reversal is most challenging. It is helpful to praise even the smallest of gains with intense gratitude during this time. Remember that where ever you focus you carry yourself, and be willing to focus your mind in the direction you want to go.

The first step in reversal is the choice for patience. If you expect some kind of perfection from yourself when you believe you are not experiencing perfection now, you will only have the experience of failure through judgment. This isn’t helpful to your goal. Decide on patience, not perceived perfection. Remember that patience is a symbol of love in what seems to be a world of time, and remember to love yourself through patience.

Patience is more than being nice to yourself, and it definitely is not treating yourself with the gloves of weakness. Patience is a powerful, powerful trust in yourself, which teaches that you will reverse the energy of the universe through will. And patience also knows that the energy of the universe is never reversed through force, but always through cooperation. So as you see, the energy of patience is love.

Once you have decided for patience, you have taken a giant step toward the reversal of energies that seem to harm you. Take time to be grateful for patience. Take time to celebrate your decision. Through these simple actions, the energy of patience is increased, and the energy that seems to surround you is softened through love.

Now that you have decided for patience, decide to take the time to do the work I have already asked you to do. Will for awareness of your thoughts, and will for awareness in gratitude. When you remember who you are, you are grateful to see all that you do, because you know all that you experience comes from you. To not see is to feel trapped, but to see is to know clearly that you are free.

When you see, you will notice a temptation to judge. Notice this temptation and feel the power of the attraction it seems to have. Stay there, feeling the attraction. As you stay in the attraction without following it, the attraction in time will grow weak.

When you are in the attraction to judgment, it is helpful to consciously choose to be there. Decide that you want to feel its pull. Imagine yourself standing in a strong current of water, and feel the rush of the water about your legs. This is the experience you want. You do not desire the experience of riding the current or pull. You also do not desire the experience of pushing upstream or fighting it. You desire the experience of being in it, feeling it and letting it rush by you, without the desire to surrender to it.

As you enjoy this current, the current will grow weaker over time. This is the power of the choice to embrace your experience.

When the waters have calmed, and this may seem to take several days of standing within the current, you are now ready to look more carefully at the thoughts you were tempted to judge. You will not see all of your thoughts immediately, but they will float to you one at a time like leaves floating upon a stream.

When a thought that isn’t helpful floats into your awareness, pick that leaf up out of the stream. Look at it. Always take the time to examine the leaves that float into your awareness. As you examine them you accept them, and through acceptance they can be seen as not wanted and released.

It is helpful not to think too much as you examine a leaf you have picked from a stream. Do not try to understand it or identify it with the intellect of a scientist. Look at it with the innocence of a child. A child does not care about the variety of leaf or wonder about the analysis of the tree from which it came. A child just looks at the leaf exactly as it is and decides, based on the pleasure that it brings, if he will keep the leaf or let it go, thereby setting himself free.

The work that you do is restful and patient, and it is love. Remember that you love yourself through doing this work in patience. It is a sunny day in the country, and there is no reason to hurry. Just stand in the stream, enjoying the work that you do, and wait patiently and willingly for the next leaf.

Now, let’s look at the thought that tells you that you can’t do this. You can feel the rush of the water as we pick up this thought. Suddenly the water is fearful, and you are afraid you will lose your footing and it will carry you away. Look up. There is a branch there. It is a thick branch and it is connected to a very strong tree. Reach up and grab onto that branch. Now, you cannot fall. Holding onto the branch, knowing that the tree is also holding onto you, go back to your memory of who you are. Remember to be patient, and remember that patience is love. Be in the rush of water and let it rush by you and around you and through you. As you stand here in this place of being, letting the fear be the fear it seems to be, the fear will grow gentler. This is a giant step into the calmness of knowing that is you. Each time you remember to allow the rushing of water, you choose the experience of peace. Through calmness, the work is more effectively done, and calmness is the effect of choosing not to panic now. Patience is not panic. Being in it is not running from it. Resting is knowing that despite appearances, all is well.

Let’s look at the idea that one idea is different from another. It tells you the work can be done with one type of thought, but another thought is fact. Feel the panic and the rush of waters. Grab onto the overhead branch and know, within the depth of your being, that this is never true. Let the water rush by you and around you and through you, and rest, knowing the idea of difference or specialness, including specialness of thought, is only an idea. And in itself as an idea, the process of letting it go is the same.

Nothing is ever different, and patience is the key because patience is love.