Regina Dawn Akers

Question: I am willing to let go of thinking I know. I see clearly that thinking I know can be based on past experience. I also see that thinking I know can be tricky on the spiritual path when I think I know based on spiritual education. What would you share with me to help me let go of thinking I know?

Answer: Thinking you know infiltrates the mind much more than you realize. You are just beginning to scratch the surface of looking at it. The first step has been taken, and this is great. You have realized that you depend much on thinking you know, and you have given willingness to realize that you do not.

Simple steps are best on the gentle path to Heaven, so I ask you to take only this step now. Be willing to notice when you think you know. Give Me your constant permission to point this thought out to you when it appears in the mind. Then, when you see that you think you know, be fully willing to say in that moment, “I do not know.”

Fear is a common reaction to “I do not know” when practiced faithfully. If you see fear, rejoice. Remember that fear symbolizes resistance to letting go of the false as true. See fear in this circumstance as evidence that you are letting go of the false as true.

Question: Ok. I’m feeling a bit of fear now. I am afraid that I will confuse thinking I know and knowing. How do I tell the difference between thinking I know and knowing, which comes from you?

Answer: The answer is not to depend on your thinking. Thinking you know comes from habit. Knowing does not. When you trust Me in the moment with no interest in habit or past learning, you will know what to do. Knowing and thinking you know are not the same and do not come from the same idea within the mind. Trust yourself to know, and you will know. Trust Me to point out when you think you know, and you will see clearly when you are thinking based on habit.

Question: Sometimes remembering who we are clears things up. At the same time, we’d like to learn more about the specifics because we still feel we need healing.

Answer: Your desire to know more about the specifics comes from your desire to heal yourself. This is from a desire to take control and fix what isn’t broken. Although this desire is understandable when you are not clear, notice it is coming from lack of clarity. Notice you feel this desire to “fix” only when you perceive yourself as broken. You do not feel the desire to “fix” when you are knowing yourself as you are.

Question: There is a lot of confusion in the mind today. We are ok with it, because we are watching it from the place of observer. But yes, there is a feeling that something needs fixing.

Answer: The observer is helpful because the observer is one step back from the game, but the observer is still observing a game with some attachment, with some interest, so the observer is not fully that which you are. It is a stepping stone, a level of awareness that is helpful, but it is a level of awareness that still seems to need help. This is why you watch from observer and still seek fixing.

The best thing to do whenever you seek fixing is to realize you are looking at all-that-is from a limited view. This is a time to practice rest, accept and trust, and the observer is a perfect place for practicing with this practice. But when you are practicing rest, accept and trust, do not feel that you are fully in the place of knowing. You are in a place of allowing, which will carry you to knowing, but you are not in knowing yet. You are remembering knowing when you remember to practice rest, accept and trust.

Knowing knows no need for fixing. When you know only perfection, then you know.

Question: Holy Spirit, the last 24 hours have been amazing, and I am grateful for all of it. I’m not going to pretend that I know what question to ask, because I don’t. But I know you have something helpful to share, something that is deeply helpful. What is it?

Answer: Asking an open-ended question when the mind has experienced an array of emotions is useful. It allows Me to address everything without singling anything out as most important. Thank you. This is what I have been asking you to do.

The main challenge now is that of letting go of personality, and the personality does not seem willing to go. That is because the light is suffering from the delusion that it is the personality, so it is using the power of light to hold to that which it sees as itself. It’s good for you to see this, to realize this, because this takes you back to the teaching of the power of light. As you see the great resistance you put against releasing the ideas of the personality, while also realizing that all of those forms of resistance come from you, you once again step into the realization of your power. This realization is a great place to be, because it is accepting the truth of who you are. Accepting this truth will move you closer to releasing your hold on personality, which is another step in the direction of realizing fully who you are.

Look at everything now through the lens I have given you. There is nothing that can occur in your life that you do not have tools with which to see. Everything can be understood through the messages I have given you. When you are not understanding something, you are making it more complicated than it needs to be. Everything is simple, and seeing everything through this simplicity will show you exactly how to see.

You are at a place in your willingness where you are ready to know yourself as you are. In order to take this step, you must stop avoiding the games you try to play. Let the games come to you without seeing them as fearful, without trying to hide. Hiding from games or denying them only teaches the mind that they are real.

Let the games come to you now, all of them. Let them come that you may say good-bye. Each one that comes is a blessing. Recognize the purpose and remember your truth, and you will know how to say good-bye.

I could tell you this will be difficult, but I will not. The part of your mind that wants to hear this is the part of your mind that wants to drag this out. That isn’t necessary now. You are closer to the Kingdom than you think. Keep your face turned in this direction. Do not turn to look at the signs that say you have very far to go. Those signs are only distractions, and they do not change what you already know.

You know this:

Your only error is listening to the false and believing the false is true. You sometimes do not recognize the false, but I am pointing those times out to you. Now you must continue walking forward in trust, always asking Me to help you see. As I point a tripping stone out to you, gently remove it from your path. Eager willingness will keep your steps consistent with Me.

When you are afraid, see only resistance to letting go of seeing the false as true. When you recognize resistance as hailing the false as true, your desire to hold to fear will die. That’s because your true desire is strong now. You’ve come along the way enough to know there is no turning back. When you know you cannot go back, there is also no reason for delay.

Resistance is strong. I won’t tell you it isn’t. But resistance only comes from you. If it comes from you, you must be stronger than it is. Resistance can never win over you. This is an impossibility. It can only rule as you let it rule. When you have tired of its hold, you will let go and it will fall away.

Remember that no situation is different. No two things can be anything but the same. Treat it as having no difference and it shall all be handled the same.

Make a list now of everything that seems different. Accept it is the same.

Holy Spirit: I’ve spoken to you about the desirelessness of surrender. Now I would like to talk about fearlessness. Desire, other than the desire to know My word, can block the guidance I have to give. Fear also can block guidance. Or it can prevent you from moving forward with what I have asked you to do.

Fear is a complex emotion because it comes from many judgments within the mind and it can be experienced in many ways. Fear may not seem like fear because it may be experienced as something else, such as anger, criticism or hatred. The ongoing commenter within the mind is a manifestation of fear.

The problem with fear is that nothing specific can be pin-pointed and fixed by you doing something in form or by you doing something differently. Fear is zero code, so fear must be recognized as nothing.

You seem to have difficulty recognizing fear as nothing because you believe the personality that fears is something in itself. But the personality is also nothing. It is zero code.

In letting go of fear, you let go of the personality. And in letting go of the personality, you let go of fear.

Seeing the connection between fear and the personality is helpful, because in any given moment you will find yourself willing to let go of one or the other. When you are too afraid to let go of fear, you will be able to find willingness to let go of personality. And when you are tempted to cling to personality, you will have willingness to let go of fear. To move in either direction is to move in both, so to move in either direction is helpful.

What is most helpful to you always is to remember what you want to remember your desire to Know thy Self. Then take whatever step you can take in that moment. Let go wherever you can let go. Every letting go is a step in the right direction, and the “right direction” is the direction you truly want to go.

Question: Can you give me an example of how letting go of personality helps me when I am afraid to let go of fear?

Answer: Yes. It is willingness that comes to your rescue. When you are afraid to let go of fear, the Son of God within you knows you are clinging to the personality. Since it is your desire to let go of fear, you will notice the willingness to let go of personality. Willingness to let go of personality, which is a willingness you can grasp in the moment, will lead you to let go of fear by practicing rest, accept and trust as I have taught you to practice.

Question: And when I am consciously clinging to the personality? For example, how does willingness to let go of fear help me let go of a value the personality holds dear?

Answer: First, you must remember that fear doesn’t always feel like fear. It may feel like anger when a personal value is being challenged. You may not have conscious willingness to let go of your value, but you may have willingness to rest and let go of anger. This is letting go of fear and it is letting go of clinging to the personality that holds the value dear.

Question: Is there anything else that you would share with me in this moment?

Answer:Yes. I wanted to talk to you about surrender. In order to surrender, you must be willing to let go of fear. When the fear seems strong, remember your desire to let go of personality. It is this desire, which is the desire to Know thy Self, that shall lead you to walk through fear.

Holy Spirit: To see that you are not who you think you are, remember first that all ideas are in the mind. Remember all ideas are the same, in that they are all ideas and they all exist within the one mind that is you.

When you have a grasp on the realization that ideas are only ideas and they live only in the mind that is you, try this exercise:

Take a piece of paper and draw a line down the center to make two columns. At the top of one column write, “What I think I am.” At the top of the other column write, “Then I must also know.”

Now look at the personality-body that you call you, which is actually only a filter of ideas. How would you describe that personality-body using one word adjectives? List those adjectives in the first column.

Each adjective that you have used to describe the personality-body has an opposite. Write its opposite in the second column next to the corresponding adjective.

When you’ve finished this, look at both columns. Remember that everything you look at exists only as ideas in the mind. Now, see that both sets of ideas are in the mind. Where there is beauty, there is ugly. Where there is smart, there is dumb. Where there is skilled, there is unskilled.

In order for you to know the experience of feeling beautiful, you must have at some time felt ugly. To know feeling smart, you must have felt dumb. To know skilled, you must have felt unskilled. Only by feeling both can you know both, and only by knowing both can you ‘choose between’ in order to identify yourself as.

In other words, both sets of opposites have been a part of your experience or you would not be aware of either. And if both are a part of your experience, can you truly be defined as only one?

If you are experiencing ugly, you have experienced beautiful, so which are you truly? If dumb, then smart also. And if unskilled, skilled.

As you look at these two columns, you will realize you know both experiences. This is the only way you can make comparisons, and only through comparisons can you ‘choose between’ in order to define. Accept that this is true. In this acceptance, definitions begin to fade.

Think on this today, and be glad. In accepting this you release your hold on the false. In releasing your hold on the false, you open to only that which is true.

Question: Holy Spirit, you’ve given us great tools lately that are very much appreciated. Yet we seem to have worry thoughts that still stick to us…the seemingly ‘little fears’ that never go away. I realize these ‘mists of worry’ must have a greater grip on us that we may acknowledge. Please talk to us about low-level ongoing anxiety.

Answer: These fears are ongoing and low-level because they are built into the personality. Fears that are built into the experience, or event-based fears, can seem bigger and more traumatic, but they come and go based on events. Fears that are built into the personality are codes that are more foundational to overall experience. This personality attracts these event-based fears based on built-in personality fears.

It’s important to remember that the personality isn’t true. It isn’t you. You need to be able to look at the personality and its fears without being identified with them. Your role is to undo the false ideas by seeing them as false, and you can’t do this as long as you are identified with them as true.

Try this: Step back from the personality by not calling it ‘me’ or ‘I’. Call it ‘the personality’ within your mind. Then write down the fears that the personality has. Realize that these fears are built into this character, but you are not the character. This stepping back will allow you to detach a little from your fears, because they are truly only your fears as long as you believe the personality is you.

As you look at the personality’s fears, notice when you feel the grip of believing they are yours. This grip may feel stronger than low-level as you look directly at them recognizing they are not you. This is because you are looking now at the fear of letting go of self.

Breathe into that fear; rest into it. As you look at this fear you see the hold the low-level fears have on you. They are like glue or binding fears, which keep you attached to the personality. They are the fears you love to fear, because they keep you from knowing your Self. As you look at them now with the idea of letting go of them in your mind, you see it isn’t the little fears that terrify you, but it is not fearing them that scares you the most.

Once you realize this, you understand the purpose of your ‘mists of worry’. Once you notice their purpose, they cannot have the same hold on you. For each time that they come up into the mind now, you can see them for what they are. They are key elements of the filter that keep you from knowing who you are.

When you see these recurring personality fears in your mind, recognize what they are. Call them by their name. Say to yourself, “There’s that piece of filter designed to teach me that I am what I am not.”

Each time you identify the fear for what it is, you loosen a bit more from your desire to hold onto it. That’s because each time you choose to say this statement, you choose to acknowledge what you truly want more. You choose to tell the mind that “knowing thy Self is desired and not knowing thy Self is dying as a desire that lived in me.”

Hello Dear Friends,

Regina

Question: Holy Spirit, is there anything that you would share with us today? I am especially interested in learning how to get better at surrender.

Answer: The desire to surrender is one of the most useful desires you can have on the path of awakening to Me, which is also the path of awakening to you. This is because the ego is a tricky and clever thought, created by you to teach you that which isn’t true. And since it was created by you, it has a wisdom you will listen to until you learn that not listening is the way you want to go.

Surrender is the way of not listening to ego, and it is through the rewards of surrender that you learn you want to not listen more.

When you surrender, you do not leave the realm of your Self since the realm of your Self is all that is. But you do call to the Heart of your Self, which is outside the limited realm of your thinking mind. In order to go beyond the gates of the thinking mind you must surrender, because the desire that is manifest within the realm of the thinking mind is the desire to listen carefully to all that it says.

Surrender is a desire. It is a desire of the heart. It is a desire to Know thy Self as you truly are beyond the limited perception of the thinking mind. In order to reach beyond the thinking mind, the thinking mind must be put to rest. This is the idea behind surrender.

To surrender, it is best to practice this: Become first, desireless. This idea frightens many people, because they are afraid that in desirelessness they shall lose, but desirelessness is a restful state that takes you beyond the limited desires of the thinking mind and moves you to the guidance of the unlimited desires of the heart.

Desirelessness is letting go of everything you think you want except the purpose of awakening, which is also the purpose of serving. In choosing surrender, you choose to serve only the purpose of truth, and in serving only one purpose all other purposes must be let go.

You will know within the honesty of your heart when you have reached the point of deisrelessness so that no one thing matters to you. When you are free, completely free within the knowing of your mind to do whatever the Father asks, ask then what you shall do. An answer will come. Do that, and do not question what you do.

As desirelessness becomes stronger within your heart, the desires of the heart shall become known. Remember that these desires do not come from thinking but from knowing, so they do not come from conscious decisions but from guidance, which seems to come from the unknown. When you are given a step, but not the whole plan, you may trust this is the way of guidance. Follow the step you are given. Celebrate and rejoice over the one step that is known. Through gratitude for surrender, the next step is unveiled. In its own time, the path is revealed, and this is a moment of great celebration for the mind that is surrendered in love.

Take your time and rest. As always, patience is a blessing. Trust and joy are the fruits of patience and the seeds of miracles on the path of surrender.

Holy Spirit: Peace is everything. I’ve told you before that trust is everything, but peace is everything too. The two go together and are inseparable so that one cannot be everything without the other being everything too.

Let me redefine peace for you. Peace, within the experience of the illusion with the experience of an ego mind, is trust over doubting, acceptance over judgment, and rest over pain. It is choosing to rest, or relax, instead of choosing resistance, which is pain.

Peace is necessary for healing. Without peace, you are caught up in the code of illusion and fearing the code is true. This is the opposite of peace. Fearing the code is pain.

Peace is the path to the peace of God. Peaceful acceptance and trust is the way to awaken to that which you are. Peaceful acceptance is awakening. Denial and resistance are the choice for pain.

You asked if resistance is necessary on the spiritual path of awakening. The answer, of course, is no. You choose all of your experiences, including the experience of resistance, and you experience it exactly to the degree that you wish.

You may ask why you would choose the pain of resistance when you could experience peace. The answer is simple and one I am sure you have not overlooked. You choose resistance because you choose not to know fully that which you are. Resistance serves your choice to know yourself not as you are.

Your next question is how to let go of resistance, since you wish to be happy and free of pain. This answer is once again simple: Choose happiness through will for and peace.

When I say choose happiness through will for, I am directing you to the choices you are to make from the code. You are to choose the choices that make you happy. Follow your own happiness, and you never choose wrong.

Peace is acceptance of all things, including the choice to choose what you do not want. When a choice has been made that did not make you happy, be at peace with your choice. Accept what you have done. Do not resist the decision or its effects. Through taking responsibility, you become more responsible, and this will lead to more free choosing of that which you want.

Do not ask for any change to occur too quickly. Be willing to take your time. The slow way is the fast way, because the slow way is the way of trust. Trust sees no need to hurry.