Regina Dawn Akers

Hello Friends,

Often, I ask a question of the Holy Spirit because I feel guided to ask that question. You can usually tell when I do that, because I ask the Holy Spirit, “What do you want to share about . . .?” It’s wonderful to learn from the Holy Spirit when even the questions are guided!

When writing with the Holy Spirit, I sometimes judge as I write. It’s kind of funny, if you think about it. Who am I to judge the Holy Spirit? But, I seem to do it anyway. This morning, the Holy Spirit used the subtle judgments that I was making as a teaching example. The Holy Spirit used my judgments to show us how we subtly cling to the world and deny our true Self. It’s a perfect teaching example.

It’s funny as we look within and find how much we cling to this world. We even cling to the world by judging words that are used in communication. (ha ha)

Now, we can be more alert to our defenses and choose to make another choice.

With Love,

Regina

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Question:  A Course in Miracles says, “The world you see must be denied, for sight of it is costing you a different kind of vision.” (Text 13.VII.2) What do you want to share about this thought?

Answer: Denying the world you see is difficult for you, because you want so much to believe in it. This is why you must resist temptation to easily succumb to the world and all of its worldly whims. Each time you are swept up into it, you hold onto it a little more.

Let me explain what I mean by these words. I see your temptation to judge them.

The first word you felt tempted to judge was “resist.” You said to yourself, “But I am not to resist anything. I am to allow everything.” Let Me correct this error in your mind.

You are not to believe everything. This is why I say you are to deny the world. If you believe a certain person is attacking you, you fear the attack or outcome of the attack, and you resist the attack out of fear. In this, you are not allowing. You are trying to control, because you believe events must play out your way for you to be safe and happy. This emphasizes the belief in lack and separation within the mind. It isn’t helpful to you.

However, if you see the opportunity to perceive attack, and you “resist” by remembering you can choose differently, you are denying the world and its seeming reality. You are allowing events to be as they are by realizing that as they are is meaningless. In this way, you are instantly released from the perception of attack and free to respond to guidance that is not mottled by lack of clarity.

Denying the world you see is very difficult for you, because you want so much to believe in it. This is why you must resist temptation to succumb to the world and all of its worldly whims. Each time you are swept up into it, you hold onto it a little more.”

You did not like the word “succumb,” because you aren’t certain of its meaning, and you hate writing words when you are unsure of their meaning. This comes to you from your doubt and fear of God. You feel safer when you maintain the control of knowing, and you are terrified to resist the desire to control. But, this is a perfect example of what I am teaching you now. In feeling you need to control a word, you are choosing the world as your reality and protection. You do this also in choosing to defend yourself against attack or fear. Each time you try to make yourself safe through attempted control in the world, you are succumbing to the whims of the world by believing you are separate and abandoned. This is not helpful to you.

You must resist temptation to succumb to the world’s wish for separation by staying firmly in touch with your desire to know only truth. As you let the whims of the world pass you by by letting its thoughts pass by unclung to, you choose to deny the world and its seeming reality. In doing this, you choose to stop seeing as you have seen, and you make room, through invitation, for another way of seeing to enter.

You didn’t like this last statement, because it implied you could make a mistake, and I have taught you that mistakes are impossible. You want Me to be consistent. I am always consistent. When you are unaware of My consistency, you are not listening to Me.

You cannot make a mistake, because you are free and you cannot change your reality. If you choose to cling to the world, that is not a mistake, because it is your choice. In that way, it is perfect. But you will not know happiness if you make this choice. You are at peace and deep within the heart of joy when you are in harmony with your Self. You are in harmony with your Self when you choose in accordance with your one true desire, to know thy Self.

If you choose to accept the world, you choose to deny your Self. This cannot make you happy, because this is disharmony within. When you choose to resist the world by denying its reality, you ask to know thy Self. This is a request for Love made upon the reality of Love. Love cannot say no to a request for Love. In choosing to deny the world, you choose to know thy Self. In this choice, there is happiness.

Denying the world you see is very difficult for you, unless you focus upon your one true purpose (healing). In focusing on Purpose, which is driven by desire, that which seemed difficult becomes simpler, because desire is the power that drives all choices.

Hello Friends,

I recently received a couple of emails from a friend who questioned an answer I heard from the Holy Spirit a week or so ago. That posting was called “The ego wants you dead,” and it is posted here .

Let me share some excerpts from my friend’s emails:

> For me, something came up as I read it. I understand that the ego cannot kill Christ (Me) and that makes me very happy. I understand that the ego wants to render me unknown to myself. But, in my experience, I do very much feel that the ego THINKS that it is capable of killing Him through me. At least it is trying to do this.

> When I honestly observe the stuff that comes up in me though the ego, I am very aware of the psycho killer feelings that I can have. I am perfectly capable of murder in given moments. That I seek to have these feelings/thoughts healed is my choice. But the facts as I know them are: the ego would just “love” for me to bludgeon my brother (Christ) to death. It has tried to limit the Son of God (by his own acceptance) to a body and can now try to kill Him through it.

> The ego WANTS to kill me. The ego is TRYING to kill me. Happily, it can’t because I am not a body, I am an idea. Ideas cannot be killed. They can only be accepted (celebrated) or denied. I don’t think the Course was inaccurate or unclear in saying, “The ego wants you dead.”

>Clarity!!!!! HS has just pointed out with great simplicity that this entire discussion is based upon one word you wrote: TRYING.

My friend suggested that, as the scribe, I may have added this word myself. I knew that was not the case. I was not attached to this question or this answer, and I know that I copied exactly as I heard. I decided to ask the Holy Spirit why it said, “The ego is not trying to kill you.” This is the response to that question:

Answer: The ego is nothing but a collection of thoughts, beliefs and concepts within the mind. They are thoughts you have chosen to believe. Your purpose for choosing these thoughts was not to kill your existence; therefore, that cannot be the purpose of the ego. The purpose of choosing these beliefs was to find happiness through independence. And then, you judged your desire to find happiness through independence, so you felt guilty, fearful, etc. My role is to lead you Home again, back to another choice, by teaching you that you are not guilty and there is nothing to fear. I must also help you to see that your first chioce has not led to your happiness, and since your only Will is happiness, you can unchoose the choice that you made, which has not made you happy.

The ego is not trying to kill you and that has never been its goal. The hatred that seems to kill within illusion is merely a defense mechanism that covers up your fear. The fear covers your guilt, and the guilt is a misperception. All of this must be undone. It is true that if it is denied, it must be brought out of denial and seen, but then it must be denied again. The second time it is denied, it is denied because it is false. This is the denial that heals, because this is the denial that points the mind back to truth and the opportunity to choose again.

You are the chooser. You are the mind that made the option called ego. In that way, the ego is not separate from you. But, it also isn’t you. It is a collection of thoughts within your mind that you gave purpose to. That purpose was to have an experience that was different from the experience of Heaven. That was to render your truth unknown and experience something different. You are having that experience now within the world. So, you can look at the world and decide if this is an experinence of happiness or not. If you see that it is not, you can begin the journey Home again by letting go of the thoughts, beliefs and concepts that you hold to within the mind.

That’s the end of the answer. What I got out of this is that by saying, “The ego is not trying to kill you,” the Holy Spirit is referring to an earlier point in the ego’s making. We all know that the ego tries to kill the Son of God within the experience of the world, but the Holy Spirit refers to that as a defense mechanism against fear. It is not the ego’s original purpose. The ego’s original purpose is trying to find a happiness greater than the happiness experienced in Heaven. As I sit and look at this, I am notcing that I see the ego as nothing but confusion, or “madness” as A Course in Miracles would say. It is clearly a “tiny, mad idea.”

With Love,

Regina

Question: Holy Spirit, A Course in Miracles says, “The ego wants you dead, but not itself.” (Text 15.I.3) What do you want to share about this thought?

Answer: You are the one beyond the ego, and you cannot be heard or known among the ego’s raucous chatter. In this way, you are dead to awareness, since your ongoing truth is unknown and hidden from you as long as you listen to the ego.

The ego is not trying to kill you, for you cannot be killed. The ego attempts to render you dead by rendering you unknown. It does this by making itself constantly known by you as you.

The ego is nothing that can be hated or struggled against. The ego is merely a collection of false ideas in the mind, which cover up and hide the true ideas that are beneath them. It is like a false building built on top of a true one or a mask upon a face. You are neither the false building nor the mask. You are that which is beneath, or beyond, the false covering.

The ego wants you dead in that it wants you to remain unknown, but you do not share the ego’s goal. You seek to remember your Self. To do this, you cannot participate in the ego’s plan to keep you hidden. You must choose to exercise your right to rest the thinking mind. Choose “I don’t know” and let Me speak. Cling to “I don’t know” as if it is your answer, because it is. As the artificial is put aside, realness rises into recognition. It is through this experience that you shall finally decide to take off the mask of falsity forever.

“The journey that seemed endless is almost complete, for what is endless is very near. You have almost recognized it. Turn with me firmly away from all illusions now, and let nothing stand in the way of truth. We will take the last useless journey away from truth together, and then together we go straight to God, in joyous answer to His call for His completion.” (ACIM Text 16.IV.12)

Question: What is meant by this statement? “We will take the last useless journey away from truth together.”

Answer: In order to accept truth, you must look at untruth and deny it its reality. Any reality it seems to have comes from you, so you are the one that must deny its seeming reality by accepting it as wholly unreal.

“To lift the veil that seems so dark and heavy, it is only needful to value truth beyond all fantasy, and to be entirely unwilling to settle for illusion in place of truth.” (ACIM Text 16.IV.10)

“In the Name of God, be wholly willing to abandon all illusions.” (ACIM Text 16.IV.9.5)