I went through a strong period of resistance yesterday afternoon. In time, it was fairly short. But I assure you, it was no fun at all. I turned to Spirit for help. Here is the conversation we had, along with some commentary regarding what I learned through this conversation.
Question: Please help me. I feel blocked. I want the blockage cleared, but I don’t know how to break free. I need you now.
Answer: You want freedom, but you are holding onto suffering by denying all that you are . . . by trying to reject parts of you. You want very much to be separate and alone, and this is not your answer. You are looking in the wrong direction. It is not through separation that you are joined. It is through joining that you are joined.
(It became clear right away that Spirit is not talking to Regina. It is talking to the mind that is the Son of God.) Jump! video
Relax into observer. In trying to be alone, you resist all that you experience. Let go of resisting and watch it. Don’t see it as you, but as not you. Detachment is the way to joining.
Question: I don’t understand. This seems to be different than trying to see it all as coming from my mind.
(I had been given a thought for the day, which was, “It is helpful to see all thoughts and images as the same.†I understood that this thought meant I am to see it all as coming from my mind.) Toy Story 2 psp The Lizzie McGuire Movie dvdrip
Answer: You are not your thoughts. You are the thinker of your thoughts. To see this, you must detach from your thoughts. By identifying with them, you think they are you. This is making yourself small. By detaching from them, you see they come from you, but are not you. This is the knowing that sets you free.
(Again, it is clear that the Holy Spirit is not speaking to Regina but to the mind that is the Son of God. It is reminding the mind, “You are the thinker of your thoughts.” As I let this sink in, I realized that everything that we resist, we resist because the mind identifies with it. The mind thinks it is the guilt, unworthiness, fear and hatred that it experiences, and so it resists these things. The world was made through the desire to resist or deny the thoughts the mind thought it had become. At a level beyond Regina‘s conscious awareness, I think I am everything that is the opposite of heaven. And this is why the Holy Spirit said, “By identifying with [your thoughts], you think they are you. This is making yourself small. By detaching from them, you see they come from you, but are not you.”)
Question: How do I be within my thoughts (while I seem to be in a world), while also learning to detach?
Answer: Relax. Do not take anything seriously. See it all as a game. Do as you want and do not judge yourself. This is detaching. It may seem to be withdrawing, but it is learning proper perspective. Once your perspective has shifted, you will interact within your thoughts effortlessly. Until your perspective has shifted, there will be effort whenever you are identifying with a thought as meaningful. Modesty Blaise movie download
Question: So I pull away in order to join?
Answer: You are pulling away from what you think it is in order to learn what it really is.
(Holy Spirit is asking me to let go of everything that I perceive as important within the world. This turns the fear up a notch and increases the need to go within and rest the mind. Letting go becomes the only focus, as letting go is seen to be the same as detaching. We must let go or detach, because we are identified with. We must let go of the identification with that which we aren’t, in order to accept that which we are. This is seeing forgiveness from yet another angle, but it is still all the same. We are asked to keep moving forward by letting go until there is nothing else to hold onto. Forgiveness is our only function. My happiness and my function are one.
One final note: The pulling away is not necessarily a pulling away in form, although that may be the decision I make at times. Pulling away means pulling away within the mind. It literally means, let go of seeing it as real and meaningful.)