Regina Dawn Akers

Dear Friends,

Last week, I went on vacation. The thought to go came up rather suddenly, and everything worked easily so that we were able to go. We went to Massachusetts, where we lived before moving to North Carolina.

When we arrived in Massachusetts, I noticed that I felt as if I was home

. Memories came flooding into my mind with every sight. I cried with joy at being there.

During meditation on the first morning in Massachusetts, the Holy Spirit told me that I was there to let go of idols. That made perfect sense. There were so many things that I loved about Massachusetts . . . too many to list.

So I spent my day experiencing Massachusetts, noticing my love for it, and being afraid of my love. I felt guilty for loving everything that I saw. I thought I wasn’t supposed to love it.

During meditation on the second morning in Massachusetts, the Holy Spirit told me, “Only fear makes [the world] seem real. Love recognizes it as harmless.”

A-ha . . . I was afraid of loving what I saw, because I was afraid that I was making it real. But, I cannot make illusion real.

That freed me to love what I looked at and let it go at the same time! So, I walked through my past, enjoyed my experience and let it go.

At first, it seemed as if I was letting go of many people, places and things. But then, that was simplified. Everything that I experienced in Massachusetts was a part of me as I defined me. I wasn’t letting go of “idols.” I was letting go of one idol . . . one false belief . . . Regina Dawn Akers.

Perception has not been the same for me since. Somehow, separateness dissolved in that realization. I’m not claiming to be “enlightened,” but I am claiming to see differently. I no longer see you and me as separate. I am somehow aware that we are the same. I still use words like you and me and him and her, but the words have less meaning to me. They describe form, but not reality.

Form and reality are no longer one. That is what is different. And because form and reality are not one, all else is.

This is not a constant awareness for me. It seems to come and go. But it is an awareness that I have, and when I don’t have it, I practice forgiveness until it returns.

I share this with you, because we share that which we value in order to keep it, and I value this awareness.

We are apart from our experience, but we are not apart from our truth.

With Love,

Regina

Dear Friends,

The Holy Spirit tells us that the world is an illusion. The world tells us that it is real. We have to choose which one we will put our faith in.

In the Matthew intepretations, the Holy Spirit told me repeatedly to believe Him over everything that I see, experience and think in the world. That seems to be a big request, but it is a request that I practice. I practice it, because I see the logic in the request.

We are taught that we are more than human. We are co-creators. (Not separate, but as one.) The world is an experience we have made. It seems to be a trap, because we believe our own experience, and so we continue to make it through thought. Here’s how we do that:

We have a fearful experience . . . we think about our experience with fearful thoughts . . . we continue to perceive fearfully and the world continues to deliver fearful experiences . . . we continue to think fearful thoughts, etc.

It is like a merry-go-round that goes round and round and round.

The Holy Spirit has told me that this is why we must be willing to think apart from our experience.

This is what forgiveness is: We have a fearful experience . . . but we remember who we are . . . we choose to rest the mind and let the fearful thoughts pass without believing them . . . we trust the Holy Spirit . . . we focus on His thoughts . . . we give willingness to see beyond our experience.

In the beginning, it seems difficult to think apart from our experience, but with practice, it gets easier.

For example, if I have a headache . . . I notice that I seem to have a headache. Then I remember that it is an experience, but that doesn’t make it real. I can believe the experience and believe I am a mortal woman. Or I can trust the Holy Spirit above my experience. I choose the latter option. I do not deny the experience. I deny that it is my reality. I deny that it defines me. I deny that my experience is all there is. I trust the Holy Spirit. I put my faith with Him. I am grateful for our truth. I rest in God through trust and gratitude.

If someone seems to attack me with words, I notice that I perceive it as an attack . . . then I remember that attack implies separateness & I remember that the Holy Spirit asks me to trust that we are not separate. I see that the belief in attack is an agreement to believe we are separate, and then I choose again. I choose to simply see the attack as unreal, and to trust the Holy Spirit above my experience. I am grateful for our truth. I rest in God through trust and gratitude.

Trust and gratitude are replacing fear in my life, and as I practice forgiveness in this way, it is easier to practice. I find it is automatic in many circumstances where it was not before, such as with my daughter. And when it does not seem automatic, I take the time to practice it with more focus.

I hope you find this helpful. Thank you for letting me share with you.

With Love,

Regina

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